She wakes at three
in the morning
sweaty and confused —
Heart rapid fire
feeling black and blue
Plunges her hand under
the pillow
to check for her phone —
Head wrecking ball
feeling alarmingly alone
No missed calls
or messages
capsized by her panic —
Hands earthquaking
feeling episodic and manic
blue alone manic
rapid wrecking earthquaking
waiting waiting waiting
plunging into fire
capsized
into blue panic
Heavy heart
Heavy head
Heavy hands
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